God’s Thoughts to Me
And human hands can’t serve His needs – for He has no needs. He Himself gives life and breath to everything, and He satisfies every need (Acts 17:25, NLT).
Gratefully Dying Gracefully
When thoughts are drifters on the wings of confusion, gratefulness seems like a mirage in a dry, barren desert …
… always shimmering delightfully on the horizon …
… always inviting, yet empty, broken cisterns that can hold no water.
As I have been wandering though the swamps of illness, caught in the fowler’s snare, an evangelical humanist, desperation has nearly been the victor as ungrateful thoughts played havoc with my mind.
Silly ideas and futile thinking battled to breathe just another little breath of stale, self-pitying air, causing unending, dreadful torment.
Guilt and condemnation were my hated companions as I was trying to navigate my way through the dense fog hovering constantly on the surface of my muddy mind …
… there where no two thoughts walked together as friends.
I battled to hear my Lord’s loving overtures … bidding me gently to come …
… just abiding in the cool shadows of His love.
There where I could stop striving to be His co-savior, albeit a prisoner of my mind, and just rest in the coolness of His limitless affection.
He longed to gather me with unconditional acceptance, yet I stubbornly ran to and fro …
… seeking reason and rescue for my debilitating plight …
… fearfully fighting that sweet surrender.
He once again accompanied me faithfully to the end of my reasonings and self. Again He showed me the folly of that evil lie of independence …
… the fruit of the lips of the great deceiver, the father of all lies.
The uselessness of being useful and the usefulness of being useless became vividly apparent as I was limping on my last legs.
My turmoil was gently quieted by the whisper of His voice as He reminded me that He is not served by human hands.
Gratefully, as free as a bird, my heart rose with repentance to new heights of joy and freedom as He softly gathered me into His Loving Embrace and seated me in heavenly places in Him.
Sweet blessings xx
Linking with Lisa-Jo at FMF where Grateful is the guest of honor and the ladies at my Tea Time and Link-Up page.