God’s Thoughts to Me
So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and at the right time he will lift you up in honor. Give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares about you (1 Peter 5:6-7, NLT).
A Trampled Rose
There was a time when I believed my Beloved to be a cruel, angry, non-caring abusive God.
Yet, deep in the recesses of my heart, there was a twinkle of hope that was repulsed by this monstrous lie.
I couldn’t even fathom the idea of humbling myself under the mighty Hand of this God who might just squash me to a pulp in one single blow.
But as I had nothing more to lose, I took a brave step into the unknown and gave my spirit into His hands.
At least I knew I was already at the bottom of the deep, dark pit of the world. I was weary, bone-tired, wasted and already worse for wear.
My heart was scattered in broken fragments … shredded by the windmills of the world … tossed to and fro on the stormy seas of suffering … stampeded on by wild horses of contempt … captured in the cul de sac of my life.
Like a coward I have travelled all the avenues the world has to offer to escape the deep inner conflict, turmoil and pain of my soul.
But all proved to be just another detour leading straight onto the highway to hell.
At the right time I could sense rather than see the first rays of the dawn of a new life after this death. I could feel Hands lifting me up after I was broken, laid bare, bleeding in shame and humiliation.
Like a broken, trampled rose, my heart yearned for redemption and love … true love. THEN … I heard a song … I heard heaven … singing … of another … trampled Rose.
The Rose of Heaven who purposefully took the fall for my brokenness, to release the fragrance of His unconditional love.
Me Beloved was wooing me … courting me … healing me … loving me into the most beautiful romance of the heart.
The fragrance of His brokenness was a sweet-smelling sacrifice of love … a perfume of grace … a gift of mercy.
As I lay dying, THE LIFE from Heaven descended upon me like a dove. After being ripped apart by the falcon claws of sin and the world, He gathered me into His Loving Embrace.
Much love xx